Dear Ayden,
I've been thinking about getting the new blog started for your sister, Elysia. I was gonna start it by telling her some things while I'm still pregnant with her and then I wish that I had done the same with you! So I'm gonna tell you a little bit about how I felt while I carried you :)
Ayden, I had waited so long to finally carry my own child inside of me instead of looking on and talking to others about their pregnancies. When I was younger, I just dreamed about what it would be like. I knew that it would be hard, I'd be tired and I'd probably have plenty of the nausea and what-have-you but, I could not have known how amazingly special it would be! I couldn't have known what it would feel like to have an angel kick against my tummy, saying hi and wiggling around, just waiting to be brought into the world by me :) What an honor, what a gift, what a blessing.
When I first became pregnant, I wasn't sick right off the bat. We had our first doctor's appointment around my 7th week of pregnancy and I guess I thought I was further along and had maybe gotten away with not having any of the nausea..well, I was not quite so lucky! haha I definitely was sick. I threw up a lot and especially while I was working the early morning shift (5:00am) at the Aquatic Center, I had a really rough time of it! Finally, my boss had me switched to the shift later in the day and that helped a little bit because I wasn't struggling through the mornings trying to make myself hold food down that early and rush to get to work. The sickness was hard and I could not wait for it to be over! Finally, pretty much right when I hit the 2nd trimester, I was blessedly released from nausea prison haha and I felt very normal again. Towards the end there was discomfort and pain because I got so big and my uterus is so small. Oh, my uterus is heart-shaped so, you got stuck inside the right half of it once you got bigger. That was very uncomfortable, as you might imagine, having a 6 pound baby smooshed into one side of your stomach! Most women have their whole stomach and still say it's rough being so crammed inside there so, yeah, it was tough! But, it was ok :) Every time I would contract, the right side would be elevated way above the left and my stomach was soft-ish on the left side and hard as rock on the right side haha it was interesting to be unique in that way.
I started showing pretty early, around like 3 months. Not very big at first but around the end of my pregnancy (like from 6 months on) I started to get very big! I felt huge! I had plenty of people tell me that I wasn't very big at all, but when it's you going through it, you always feel huge! Well, at least, that's how it was for me. I could tell I wasn't as big as many other women that were pregnant, but for me, I was bigger than I ever thought I could be! I didn't mind though :) I liked having that big bump there for the whole world to see that I was carrying my precious little one and she was growing and that she was safe and sound!
You loved to move and you were always getting the hiccups :) 3-4 times a day you would get them! Bump, bump, bump, bump, for a couple minutes I'd feel them, the tiniest little bumps :) I really loved apples when I was pregnant with you and craved dirt and ice towards the end! I loved the smell of the basement at daddy's work, I would go through there any chance I got so I could smell it haha
I thought about you constantly. I always had my hands on my tummy, partially to keep you from digging into my ribs haha but, mostly because I liked to feel close to you :) I loved that. The feeling of you being right next to my heart, curled up safe and sound. I loved being able to provide you with everything you needed! I was your home, your food, your safety. I was your everything, and you were mine. :)
Sweetheart, carrying you was the most amazing experience I had ever had! I don't miss the sickness, but I do miss some of the things about being pregnant with you. Feeling your little bumps and wiggles, being kept up at night by your dancing around in my tummy. :) Any discomfort I had while going through those 9 months was swept away when I finally got to hold you in my arms. I could remember that all the pain had happened, but it was like a distant dream that faded in comparison to the dream I had entered when you came into my life :) That's the dream I'm still loving and living. Thank you for being mine, little one.
I love you so much Ayden Elizabeth. a million times a bajillion-million ;)
Love, Mommy
Monday, December 29, 2014
Likes and Dislikes at 12 Months of Age
Dear Ayden,
Sweetheart, you are 1 year old now!! I am just ridiculously awestruck over how quickly that year passed! I can still feel you in my arms at the hospital the day you came into the world :) You were so tiny, only 6 pounds! Now you're almost 18 pounds, you're walking around like a pro and you can say like 10 words and know about a dozen more than that!! I wish you could stay little forever but, since I know that can't happen, I promise to enjoy every moment with you as you learn and grow into the beautiful woman you will be :)
Here's one of your beautiful birthday pictures:
Likes:
You like to play all day long (the energy you have is amazing)
You like to chatter to yourself and to anyone who will listen :)
You like (LOVE) to read books!
You like to spend time with your grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins
You like to flip your head back to look at the lights when you eat at restaurants :)
You like (LOVE) to splash in the bathtub or anytime you can reach into the sink
You like to eat mommy and daddy's food
You like exploring everywhere and everything
You like (LOVE) when daddy comes home from work
You like running around with your arms flailing, it's so cute!
You like to wave hi to everybody
You like dancing to any music or humming or whistling :)
You like stomping your little feet on the ground
You like doing a little yell that you do when you go into new rooms to hear if it echoes
You like sitting in peoples' laps
You like to back up until you can sit in a lap or lean against a wall
You like to sit on the heater vent with your books or toys
You like to mimic mommy and daddy
You like to cling to mommy's legs while she makes food
You like to be where the action is :)
You like spending time hanging out with mommy and daddy
You like to get tickled and thrown up in the air
You like (LOVE) Cuties!
You like going places and seeing new things
You like (LOVE) Christmas lights
You liked to unwrap everything you got for your birthday and for Christmas
You like getting loves and hugs and kisses
You like (LOVE) bath time, we can hardly get you out of the tub!
You like making funny noises
You like riding on daddy's shoulders
You like the piano and your toy piano
You like making people laugh
You like playing "where's the baby"
You like running away from mommy and daddy when we chase you
You like to play with your tongue
You like to pull stuff out of laundry baskets or drawers (we had to lock the lower drawers in the kitchen because you were obsessed with getting into them)
You like (LOVE) to climb stairs
You like when we put ChapStick on you, you laugh every time
You like when daddy rubs his head against your tummy, you think it's hilarious!
You like doing dishes with grandpa
You like snack time
You like to eat the toothpaste when mommy brushes your teeth
You like to get your hair brushed
You like to run across the couch over and over again
You like to climb on the bed
You like waking daddy up in the mornings
You like to pull off any hats or headbands mom tries to put on you ;)
Dislikes:
You dislike having your nose wiped
You dislike getting your diaper changed
You dislike being stuck in the car too long
You dislike being kept from something you want
You dislike vacuums
You dislike not being able to see what mommy's making for dinner
You dislike not being held when mommy goes into the kitchen at all because you know she's doing stuff that you'd like to see
You dislike being laid down to get ready for bed
You dislike being woken up too early
You dislike having your schedule thrown off for too long
This is probably the last of these posts I will do. Maybe I'll do one at every year mark :) But, I just want you to know that your father and I are so grateful to have you in our lives and I could never have asked for anything more when we got you! I had dreamed about being a mom since I was a child and when the Lord gave us you, Ayden, my dreams were exceeded by far!! I love you so much, my sweet little angel!! I can't get over how beautiful and special you are. You have an amazing personality, so much warmth and intelligence, love and vivacity! I am so proud of you. I am so grateful for you. I love you.
Love, Mommy
Sweetheart, you are 1 year old now!! I am just ridiculously awestruck over how quickly that year passed! I can still feel you in my arms at the hospital the day you came into the world :) You were so tiny, only 6 pounds! Now you're almost 18 pounds, you're walking around like a pro and you can say like 10 words and know about a dozen more than that!! I wish you could stay little forever but, since I know that can't happen, I promise to enjoy every moment with you as you learn and grow into the beautiful woman you will be :)
Here's one of your beautiful birthday pictures:
Likes:
You like to play all day long (the energy you have is amazing)
You like to chatter to yourself and to anyone who will listen :)
You like (LOVE) to read books!
You like to spend time with your grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins
You like to flip your head back to look at the lights when you eat at restaurants :)
You like (LOVE) to splash in the bathtub or anytime you can reach into the sink
You like to eat mommy and daddy's food
You like exploring everywhere and everything
You like (LOVE) when daddy comes home from work
You like running around with your arms flailing, it's so cute!
You like to wave hi to everybody
You like dancing to any music or humming or whistling :)
You like stomping your little feet on the ground
You like doing a little yell that you do when you go into new rooms to hear if it echoes
You like sitting in peoples' laps
You like to back up until you can sit in a lap or lean against a wall
You like to sit on the heater vent with your books or toys
You like to mimic mommy and daddy
You like to cling to mommy's legs while she makes food
You like to be where the action is :)
You like spending time hanging out with mommy and daddy
You like to get tickled and thrown up in the air
You like (LOVE) Cuties!
You like going places and seeing new things
You like (LOVE) Christmas lights
You liked to unwrap everything you got for your birthday and for Christmas
You like getting loves and hugs and kisses
You like (LOVE) bath time, we can hardly get you out of the tub!
You like making funny noises
You like riding on daddy's shoulders
You like the piano and your toy piano
You like making people laugh
You like playing "where's the baby"
You like running away from mommy and daddy when we chase you
You like to play with your tongue
You like to pull stuff out of laundry baskets or drawers (we had to lock the lower drawers in the kitchen because you were obsessed with getting into them)
You like (LOVE) to climb stairs
You like when we put ChapStick on you, you laugh every time
You like when daddy rubs his head against your tummy, you think it's hilarious!
You like doing dishes with grandpa
You like snack time
You like to eat the toothpaste when mommy brushes your teeth
You like to get your hair brushed
You like to run across the couch over and over again
You like to climb on the bed
You like waking daddy up in the mornings
You like to pull off any hats or headbands mom tries to put on you ;)
Dislikes:
You dislike having your nose wiped
You dislike getting your diaper changed
You dislike being stuck in the car too long
You dislike being kept from something you want
You dislike vacuums
You dislike not being able to see what mommy's making for dinner
You dislike not being held when mommy goes into the kitchen at all because you know she's doing stuff that you'd like to see
You dislike being laid down to get ready for bed
You dislike being woken up too early
You dislike having your schedule thrown off for too long
This is probably the last of these posts I will do. Maybe I'll do one at every year mark :) But, I just want you to know that your father and I are so grateful to have you in our lives and I could never have asked for anything more when we got you! I had dreamed about being a mom since I was a child and when the Lord gave us you, Ayden, my dreams were exceeded by far!! I love you so much, my sweet little angel!! I can't get over how beautiful and special you are. You have an amazing personality, so much warmth and intelligence, love and vivacity! I am so proud of you. I am so grateful for you. I love you.
Love, Mommy
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